Saturday, 11 January 2020

Birchbox: January

Hello, I had seen things about Birchbox for ages around my family and friends, and they had given me little samples from there little boxes, but i never really thought about getting it for myself,  until in October when i loved the design on the box so i decided to give it ago! i always love testing new things, so with this box i was able to do that! the subscription-only cost £12 a month but that's included postage fee, but you get the box every month until you opt-out which you can do at any time with no fee,  they take the money on the 1st of every month and then you get the box on the 5th - 7th of every month. and in the box, you will receive makeup products, skincare hair care and so much more good things for you little me time. 

all you have to do once you have joined them is complete a beauty profile, which helps them decide on the products which best suits your complexion, your hair type and also your makeup levels. you also get to a product that is a bonus item in which you get to choose between two of the same thing but in different colors or types... 

This is the box design for January.

Melusine jade roller 

in this month's box there was a full-size Melusine jade roller in FULL SIZE and its beautiful! birch box says it Tighten, define, soothe and de-puff your skin. once i have used it for a month or so i will be doing a little review, i have already been taking before photos to see if anything has changed in the months i have been using it! (RRP £15.50)

also in the box, there was a sample of a beautiful Waterproof Mascara, birch box said that this mascara is a sports mascara for when you're on the go,  i have used it for the last couple of days and i love the gel-like texture, it's not flakey and it doesn't smudge at all! its made my eyelashes that little bit longer to the point it looks very natural, this was only a sample size! but i think i will be buying the full size once this has gone. (RRP £19.00

the next thing in the box was this extremely lovely! body lotion that smells so lovely! i could literally eat it! haha don't worry i won't actually eat it! so once i opened this product i tested it on my arms and it made my arms feel super soft and glowy! so birch box said. it nourishes the skin and hydrating at the same time its made with 85% natural ingredients.  the good thing is it can also be recycled. £13.95

 the 5'd product i received I'm not really 100% sure of, it doesn't feel very nice on the skin and it has such a horrible heat once its on the skin, it just doesn't feel right, BUT once you have washed a scrubbed it of it leaves your skin feeling super nice and refreshed so i don't think a little bit of burning is that much of a problem, birch box says that it is Packed with dermatologically-tested ingredients to reduce oil and banish blemishes, and removes dirt and oil. what else who you want? £8.29

Last but nt least this little glow milk actually smells like a strawberry milkshake!  don't know if its meant to actually smell like that or my nose is playing silly with me lol, but the glow is so pretty i just want to bath in it! once it on it is so soft and kinda disappears after a couple of hours which is quite sad because when you fist but it on it so pretty, it like a gold sandy desert could with an extream light of golden flecks that gives you such a beautiful glow. birch box says that the hydrating formula leaves behind a dreamy dewy, skin-plumping glow. i was a little sad at how tiny the sample is, so you have to use it lightly till you can get another one as its £8.29 and out of stock quite a lot

If you haven't subscribed to birch box yet use this link here and get 50% off your first birch box! ( also you get a free gift as a new subscriber )  


Sunday, 5 January 2020

Sunday currently 5.01.20

  • Reading:  Articles on women health and social care 
  • Writing:  this blog post 
  • Listening to: the wind and the rain 
  • Thinking: about cuddling up and going sleep after I've written this post
  • Smelling: nothing still sick 
  • Wishing: my gran would be closer 
  • Hoping: that we can go to Manchester 
  • Wearing: a massive top and shorts
  • Loving: my new phone 
  • Wanting: sunshine ☀  for my husband to feel better he has s. a. d(seasonal affective disorder)
  • Needing to: phone the doctors 
  • Feeling: happy but sleepy 
  • Clicking: my feet! well more tapping 

Friday, 3 January 2020


Hi, my little teacups!

Yeah, it been a minute, hasn't it? so what's been new with me since the last time I talked, it been a ROLLERCOASTER I don't even know where to start, so I just thought I could do a year in a glance like a quick arse post lol that way it's all out in the open and we can start a very new year with a new blog schedule so let's get started to January 2019!  do you have your tissue? its gonna be a short but emotional year!  I'm not going to be including photos because some of the photos are of my family who will more than likely not want their children or selves on my blog without permission.

January, 01

well, the year started quite good, had the best Christmas a new year and a sober one so I could remember it for a very long time maybe even for the rest of my life. thinking about that Christmas  a new year it's going to be a memory I will never forget. 'ever'

February, -

In February I started yoga! I adored it so much and it was just a stone frow away from my house which meant I could just step outside a pop to the little building it was held at, and the lovely lady then surprised me and told me I didn't have to pay for my lessons and I was so overwhelmed with happiness, but the sad thing was she ( well it was amazing news ) she went traveling which I was over the moon about, but because I built a relationship with this yogi, I was a little bit scared to make a relationship with another so I had to stop going.


I had wanted a fringe cut into my hair for years and years and in March, I thought I'm going to get one cut in before my birthday! and I was so excited to the point I didn't sleep the night before because I thought whats if I hate it? I have already booked my appointment I cant bag out now it's rude! so I did it!! I got a fringe put in and I absolutely adored it! and now I've even learned how to cut my own perfectly straight fringe, yet it took time lol, and there have been times that I have cut it so short it has looked ridiculous. 

April.  insert free tissues here. 

So I have already written a full blog post in April when this happened so you can read that here. but if you CBA to click the link there or here my cat was very sick and we got to the point we had to say goodbye to our little old man of 18 years, but I got a tattoo of his cute little face to have him with me always but I am going to be doing a tattoo post soon soo won't be adding it to this post. so keep your eye on that. 

We also through my mother a surprise 50th birthday party which was such a lovely day and something we will remember for the rest of out life it was such a lovely surprise for her and all the memories we added around the party and all the people that shown up for her it was truly amazing! I'm getting emotional thinking about it 


I had got diagnosed with diabetes the year before this, and I started losing my weight after giving up all the carbs and sugar out of my life completely and I hit my first stone award and went from a size 18-16 which was absolutely amazing and I was so excited. I have now gone from a 18-10!!! but ill be doing a weight loss before and after and in between at a later day 


and this is the day my mum was diagnosed with terminal lung cancer  I prayed to anybody who would listen, please make her be okay, please make her fight this cancer. After the diagnosis, she kinda got worse and worse to the point where she spent 2 of them months in bed not able to hardly move my dad text me and said would you like to go to the factory shop with me and you're mum. I said yes because part of me just knew that was going to be the last day out I will ever have with my mum, not knowing the next couple of weeks we’re going to get soo soo hard.

there was a happy part where I went to manchester a visited my other part of the family that was really lovely as I surprised my little niece who knew nothing about our journey to see her, I do have a video to remind me of that forever 


I decided we needed something happy and I went out with all of my best friends at once, I went drinking and dancing and just letting my hair down I really enjoyed it and really took my mind off things for a couple of hours ready for the month from hell that will change my life forever.  

and we had our sister baby shower which was so lovely and what we all needed and im so glad I got home in time to be able to go because it was lovely and we got some lovely photos of my mum and our sister and bump.


My little sister gave birth to my perfect little baby niece, she was perfect and just what we needed and my mum needed it. 

So on the 13th of August, it was a normal day quite sunny for that time of year. I went to see my family like I do quite a lot through the week there was a car there that I didn’t recognize and all day I got strange feeling in my tummy that something just wasn't right but I couldn't put my finger on it, and I said to Tommy I don't know who that car belongs too and he Tommy said no think your sisters friend is here. I got in and everyone was flapping and just horrible energy. I just sat down and my sister's friend was there and my sister was really panicking and I said what’s wrong and she just looked at me and was texting on her phone and her friend said do you not no? I said no? No what? She said your mum isn’t doing well Then she began to explain to me that my mum hadn’t woke up today at all only for 10 mins I just started crying so hard. All night there were doctors in and out on and of and my mum said I need to get to the hospital which really made use panic she was that bad. So we phone and explained all want was going on and they said it could either be a virus or the cancer is getting her vital organs could be shutting down we were hoping so much that it was just a virus. But deep down we all knew it wasn’t. So in the next couple of weeks, we went to see her every day. I was holding her hand and singing to her and just cuddling her. As much as we could she was getting really really confused and just wasn’t doing very well and she would shout at us it was heartbreaking it just wasn't her, she was losing the battle we just knew it wasn't a virus We had family members visit Scotland to Spend as much time as they could. Until she went away.  She would spend the next days asleep not able to wake up. To the point that I would keep an eye on her breathing until I noticed she had started breathing so strange it was scary and we all took it in turns to stay with her ust looking at her and taking it all in trying not to cry and just taking to her about random things and she would smile and it would make me smile and I would tell her little memories about when we were growing up and what we ate for dinner and just little random things because we knew she could still hear use talking to her and then she started getting worse and worse my sister phone me and told me she wanted to give use all a  kiss so I went over and she was not In a good way and screaming at people and just getting really upset and anxious so I said I’ll see if I can settle her down so I went and said what’s wrong mum and started stroking her beautiful face and holding her hand with my other one and just sssh it’s okay and she finally went back to sleep and I just got on the other side of the bed and held her hand and sang to her.  Our song forever autumn 🍂.  my sister phoned me and said you should come over she’s not doing very well to get there 10 minutes too late to be told she’s gone heather she’s died. My beautiful mum had gone. 


we said goodbye to my beautiful mum. 

wow, I told you this was going to be a rollercoaster didn't I?  chat soon lovely's 

Thursday, 25 April 2019

~The time my life changed forever

So here is a story of a cat named Louie. He’s was a black and white tuxedo cat I adopted him from a family member and fell utterly in love with him right from the start 💕🐱he would follow me everywhere and even cuddle up with me when I’m sad or sick. Like when I lost the baby he just knew something was wrong he just wouldn’t leave my sight it was like he was telling me something was wrong. 💋  What a cheeky little cat he was he would be sick on my favorite things and even once I had to tell my teacher my cat was sick on my homework wow what a funny thing that was lol! He was my best friend and we were inseparable. 💕💕

The day my life changed forever! 

So on Tuesday 16th of April after turning 18 in April 1st he started acting very strange not wanting to come near use and not washing his tummy started blowing up very big and was being sick I thought nothing of it I thought he had eaten something out of the bin like he is known to do. So I let him rest and made sure he wasn't digging in the bin for ‘naughty food’ but he  just seemed to be getting worse as days went by and it was breaking my heart I just cried cuddling him and so I got my vet friend over just to have a little look at him he said he seemed okay apart from he had found a heart murmur which he didn’t have 5 weeks beforehand so it had creepy up quite fast and he had lost quite a lot more weight. But he will be okay. Then on the 21st he was acting very strange not cleaning himself and just zoning out like he wasn’t there by this point I had messaged my friend a photo of him and he said I need to come to see him ASAP which worried me and when he got her he said sit down. He said I don’t think he’s he is doing very well his heart is failing he’s very weak. And that night we had to make a very big life-changing choose he said treat tonight as his last night I’m not sure he’s going to come out the vets. I felt my heart being ripped out of my body. So that might I got his favorite treats and made him some fresh chicken and let him sleep in his little comforter and cuddled up next to him all night then we phoned the vets where our friend works and asked them if they could fit him in because he was so poorly. They said yeah bring him in and we can have a wee check of him. His appointments as at 2:30 on the 22nd of April which is earth day. We went and got him on his little cat box and took the 40 mins to drive to vets 4 pets and he did the most smelly poop in the car it made us all gaggy and fell sick and on the radio was you don’t have to let it linger by the cranberries it was the most unforgettable moment I’ll ever remember. Bless him. But on the way there he started dying in the car ): which was sad because I just wanted to hug him. We got to the vets and she took him out and had to put him back on while we talked about what was the wrong t with him and how he was feeling. She took one more look at him and that’s when she gave use the choose she can do a test on him to see if it can be helped or to say goodbye so we choose to say good buy 💔😭so she took him to give him a clean because he had pooped all over himself. She brought him back in this little blue towel with a IV in his little right paw and said would you like a couple or minutes with him and  we said yes please and I just cuddled him so tight and sobbed my heart out to the point I had a asthma attack and he cuddled in to me like he was saying goodbye. Was seemed like 4 hours later she can In and I asked if I could give him one last treat she said yes and passed them to me but he didn’t want it he knew what was happening so she said hold him again so I holding him tightly and tommy had his hand on my shoulder and stroking Louie’s head. She put the last needle in his paw and he was gone 4 seconds later he was gone in my arms I cried and cried and she took his little head from my hands and I kissed him one last time in the head a boobed his little nose one last time. She asked if we would like to stay with him again. I said no thankyou and we both burst out in tears our baby had gone  too rainbow bridge 🌈 The drive home was a blur and the last couple of days have been the most hardest thing I have ever gone. I had lost my best friend. I’m sorry this blog post was w very sad one I just wanted to remember ever little bit before I forgot that day forever.  

Here are some pictures from the night before 

And here are the photos of me saying goodbye and sending him on his journey to rainbow bridge 

And here are some photos that cheer me up forever with how beautiful little face. 


I Iove you always fatty man 1991-2019💕❤️

Sunday, 14 April 2019

Sunday currently

Reading: I have been reading a book called lights on the sea I don't know what to make of it yet as I have only read two chapters so far 

Writing: I have been writing a couple of blog ideas today not many but its a start of my blog getting up again

Listening to: by myself by Christian French  

Thinking:  About how blessed I am with the people I have in my life

Smelling Nothing lol 

wishing:  That I can sort out this sleep pattern for my birthday meal Friday

Hoping:  Not to have to take insulin 

Wearing: My nirvana top and bunny pjs and my fuck of socks lol

Loving: My new blog theme

Wanting:  Chocolate 

Needing too: pee lol

Feeling:  headachy 

Clicking: Laptop buttons

five good things a week #6

Having your bestfreind just a call away when you feel like you need to get everything off your chest  and talking on the phone for a couple of hours sending pictures and laughing and giggling 

the chance to do yoga in the same place you live! makes me smile and makes me feel positive 

Having somebody who loves you so much he would do anything for you 



nice food in my tummy and clean clothes on my body! 

this blog! and being able to tell the world about my struggles and it mabe helping sombody else

thankyou for reading ( if there is anybody oooout there ) see you again soon lots of love xoxo

newly diagnosed with type two diabetes

hello, lovelies! so I thought I would have a little catch up!  so the end of 2018 ended very shit! I was newly diagnosed with type two diabetes and I thought it was the end of the world I thought wow this is going to kill me I'm not going to do very well I've seen so many people with this illness and it's killing them day by day! so I went home and had a very bad break down crying for the next week and a half just staying in bed feeling so sad, then my husband sat me down and said babes we have got this you are going to be just fine!

the story behind how I knew I had diabetes I just keep feeling so sleepy all the time and this was on 14 - 16 hours of sleep I was so thirsty all the time I would drink 3 litters of water-juice a day for about 2 years and I just knew that it wasn't good I kept saying to the doctors I think I have diabetes and they just gave that look they know what's right! they would just say its probably just my iron levels which were always up and down so i thought nothing about it and just got on with my life and So i had an appointment about a recurring infection I kept getting, which was that bad it made me so poorly! the doctor that I saw also was one of the best doctors in the surgery who is actually really had to get an appointment with! so i took my opportunity and thought why  not bring up diabetes too her and she said I think that's a very good idea asked me about the symptoms i have been having and said okay its time we tested you for diabetes so she made me the following appointment for blood work and fasting bloodwork I had to have no food for  half a day and the next day I had my appointment they took 3 vials of blood made me feel like shit because I had not eaten or drunk thing other than water in 12 hours, went home and had a brew and some chocolate all happy with myself but I had gone to see a friend with the same thing and she had a glucose tester so I asked her to test me to find out that it was 28.5 which was very very hight! 

the and then the next day I woke up with a missed call and a voice mail from the doctors saying I need to make an emergency appointment straight away! by this time I hadn't even realized that I had this message or miss cal and it was after hours which made me break down thinking I had to be there that day now it's too late! lol, head of an anxious person lol. so the next day I phoned them again and they said that I needed to go in that day so yet again anxiety attacks all around it then go to the time I went to the doctors and there was another doctor there which made me think shit whos this why do I have two doctors in the room that never happened! so she sat me down and said do you want a job I was like huh? she said for collecting autoimmune illnesses? I was like oh I have diabetes don't I? she said yes you do I'm sorry its type two though so not all bad! I just sat there a said I already knew I had it and my husband turned around and said you did didn't you, babes! but my blood work came back dangerously high to the point I needed to do a 3 month NO sugar and come back to see what's going on my diagnoses was in October so I had to go no sugar all the way through Xmas which meant all the traditions were a no :( I felt so alone and upset why did I have to get this immune disorder! I was a mess everybody sat eating chocolate and cakes and I wasn't allowed them because I didn't know where I could get these things from without sugar! so after the 3 months was over,  

so in January after the no sugar what so ever and some light exercises, I had to have yet another fasting and bloodwork after that appointment I had to make another emergency appointment because the no sugar and the exercise isn't working and it is still quite high so I have had to go on metformin which they give to people who need a little bit more help trying to low the levels, this is my second month on this medication I feel so poorly and it's making me feel sick so much! but in the last 6 months, I have gone from a size 18-20 to a 12-14 I have lost over 4 stone! I have another appointment next month to see how the metformin is doing if that's not working I will have to go on the infections of insulin! so pray for me lol, I don't wanna have to go into that form of medication! 

so the last 6 months have been so hard but I am feeling quite positive and happy and ive just been told that I don't need to take iron anymore which has made me so happy because that made me feel like my insides didn't wanna be there anymore haha! so I started yoga 11 weeks ago and that is making me feel so good! and it's helping with my mental health and my muscle disorder! but that another story ;) if you feel like you have diabetes or feel like you think somebody else has please don't be scared to fight with the doctors please get tested for it, there are so many complications from this illness that I would wish I got tested earlier thankyou for reading and please message me if you have any questions :) my email is <3 lots of love lovelies <3 

Thursday, 4 April 2019

five good things a week #5

Brand new pajamas, that feeling when you have a bath and pop your new cloth items on! there is nothing better! 

Waiting for your favorite season to bring out a second season! what have you been watching? they made a part two to my favorite season called the OA and it's so good! it's a strange season to watch as it doesn't make sense till the end but here is a Trailer for ya! (:

Getting back into blogging, I have really missed it, think I just needed that quick kick up the bum, and a little inspiration.  and ive made a new theme and finishing of this little five good things post i started quite a while back! oops sorry 



Meeting up with people you haven't seen in a while and having a good old catch up and buying new clothes and having lots of nice food 

Getting a good clean on! i just love fresh washed house everything is nice and sparkly clean sheets and bedding and everything smells nice and lemoney! 

thankyou for reading ( if there is anybody oooout there ) see you again soon lots of love xoxo

Sunday, 18 March 2018

Sunday currents

  • reading:    w i t ☾ h  by Lisa Lister she explains the history behind witchcraft.  Buy me 
  • writing:  I have been writing all my feelings down in my pretty little notepad, its been really helpful with my anxiety, they say its always good to get them from your heart and chest so that it doesn't turn poisonous   
  • listening toEd Sheeran 
  • thinking:  About the big blog post I've been working on, it's about my anxiety and how i deal with it everyday I'm really nervous about the post so I'm trying to make it perfect before i post it so it's going to be a while till i post it 
  • smelling: coffee just made my babe and me a lovely cuppa 
  • wishing:  for use not to get snow lol! 
  • hoping: For our plans to become a reality 
  • wearing:  Cactus top and tartan trousers and big massive socks 
  • loving: Frankie and grace on Netflix click here  
  • wanting: Sunn!!! for my monkey to feel better he suffers from s.a.d (seasonal affective disorder)
  • needing to: Go have my iron tablet 
  • feeling: Quite happy today 
  • clicking The mouse and laptop keys.